Sick sick sick sick sick So I was probably in the 99% range of perfect health yesterday. Then I ate a chip that (felt like) it cut my throat as it went down; My throat hurt the rest of the day. Then I wake up today and feel like complete shit. My throat is killing, I have a horrible cough, I have a horrible headache, I feel faint, I get chills and the opposite (heat...chills?), and my nose is the most congested its ever been. Of course throughout the day I assumed I would get better quick (I have a good immune system, and have been taking vitamin C everyday for weeks), so I make plans for Tuesday (which is my day off). I take boatloads of medicine all day, and then when I get home from work and start getting ready to head to tampa, I realize I'm in no condition to do so. Fuck getting sick. It always gets in the way at the worst of times.
Current Mood: sick Current Music:Animal Collective - Chores
I've been in weird moods lately. One minute I'm happy and everything is good, the next I'm depressed and feeling like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown. I don't know why. I'm going to try to stop smoking for a bit (cigs and pot), and see how that changes things. I'm tried of getting high and feeling like shit the next morning. I'm also tired of getting high and sending stupid text messages that I didn't really want to send (when I look back at them). School starts on the 27th. I'm excited to go back, but at the same time, I don't really want to. I moved back home, it's cool and all, but I already want to move out again. But now I feel like I'm ready for a change, and I want to move out of this city. Somewhere new, something different. And as for relationships, things go good, then they go bad. I always seem to fuck things up after a certain point; but I'm pretty used to it by now. I'm trying to get better, but I've also been saying that for like, 3 years. I'm kinda getting over it though, learning not to give a shit.
I really really have been wanting to go to the beach lately.
Hi Im officially moved out of my parents house; I now live in a 2 bedroom apartment in Metrowest. Its dope. My room is going to be even doper (haha) when its all set up/painted. I cant decide what times to go to school. Unfortunately, it seems like i'm going to have to go before work. I like having whole days off, not days off that I have to go to school on. My birthday is soon, and that makes me happy. Although i'm only turning 20, I feel like i've missed out on a lot and I want to experience a lot more shit that maybe I did miss out on (one thing in particular haha)
This is all for now. Hopefully there will be some parties in the near future. Super party 2 is on july 14th, it shall be killer.
Current Mood: excited Current Music:Girl Talk - Hold Up
Oh no! She's a rejecter! -I have been working at CVS for 2 years now. That just makes me think that I need a new job; Thankfully the whole foods is opening soon. -I'm in a much much better mood (and have been) since that last post I made. I realized there is no need to be bummed out over what happened; It will just make me a better person. -I'm buying 4-HO-DiPT over the internet (lolz) hopefully it will be enjoyable. I was going to get 5-MeO-AMT, but the whole...throwing up for an hour before tripping doesn't sound too enjoyable. -Saturday I work from 7:00-3:00. Then after that I don't have to work until Sunday the 3rd, and im getting paid for it. A whole week of relaxing, drinking, smoking, parties, djing, tripping (hopefully), and etc etc..and getting paid for it. I guess my job isn't that bad...
Current Mood: happy Current Music:Of Montreal - She's A Rejecter
Crispy I have given up all hope on going to Lollapalooza, but the lineup for Austin City Limits has come out and it is oh so much better. Tickets are cheaper, flights are cheaper (and driving is still an option too), hotels are WAY cheaper, and Austin is amazing.
Were just a million little gods causing rain storms, turning every good thing to rust So I got back today from the 2nd trip to Atlanta, this time seeing Modest Mouse. I realize I didn't say anything about the Arcade Fire show so here ya go: If you ever get an opportunity to see Arcade Fire live, take it. In fact go out of your way and try as hard as you can to see them. It was easily the best live show ive ever been to. Unfortunately I don't have pictures; Being short doesn't help when really tall people stand in front of you and block most of your sight. Modest Mouse was also a really great show, but a lot of annoying shit happened during it (but damn, Johnny Marr is one cool guy). Kids thought it would be cool to crowd surf and get up on the stage and do random idiotic dances. At the very end there had to be about 10-15 people on stage that weren't in the band. Driving to Atlanta twice in the same week really took a toll on my car. Upon the first time coming back, my tires went ape shit and I had to spend almost $400 fixing them. Not to mention gas was nothing less than $2.90. Im bored out of my mind right now, Sundays are boring. I have tomorrow off though and am really looking forward to just enjoying a day off. I realized being bored does nothing for my mood except making me bummed out (and slightly depressed) about how my life is currently going. My heart is lonely~
Ughhhhhh I do horrible in certain social situations (usually only involving females) Pot does not help this; Drinking, on the other hand, does. Once my nerves take over, it gets so insanely hard to even say something. I hate it, and i'm sure it makes me seem like an idiot. Even worse is that over time, with whoever it may be, I do get better and become more open etc. But usually by that time it's too late, and that is my downfall and the story of my life for the past 4 years. But I'm not going to stop trying, simply because I have nothing at all to lose.
I just wish I owned a time machine.
Current Mood: hopeful Current Music:Arcade Fire - No Cars Go
the mousey girl screams 'violence, violence!' I bought the coolest flight simulating device ever yesterday. I'll post a picture soon, because no words can do it justice. 4/20 is soon, and its going to be a pretty great day. Smoking tons, drinking, cool music, nice friends, hopefully dancing and of course, not having to work the next day. Even better, the next day is Clap Your Hands Say Yeah.
I'm changing my major from general studies to journalism.
Current Mood: excited Current Music:Led Zeppelin - Celebration Day
I want to go! I just realized this show will probably be amazing. and its on 4-20 The Locust, Daughters, Yip-Yip, and Cattle Decapitation State Theater, St. Petersburg
Once again.... How come everything that happens to me always ends up the same? Either someone really hates me, or I have shit for luck. Everything always turns out the same way. And it always always always happens. I'm so sick of it.
I just don't get it anymore. Whats wrong with me?
On a more positive note: -Of Montreal is on the 31st, I don't think I could be any more excited...I can't see how it wont be awesome. -Im seeing Cold War Kids on Wednesday, probably by myself..but I dont care, I really want to see them. Then its Electric six on the 6th, blood brothers on the 9th, and ratatat on the 11th....how cool.
Current Mood: sad Current Music:The Sadness of Silence
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